Who Am I? [Vol.1]

“Who am I?” she asked herself the thousand and first time.

She had never been so fragile in her life, well, at least that is what she convinced herself.

She did not have the courage and will to fight herself anymore.

There were so many boundaries that laid before her,

She did not dare cross them,

The scars that she gets from leaping from one end to another.

The scars that were never healed, leaving the stingy mark of her.

She wanted to let of go of all her memories, but it wasn’t enough.

The scar was not on her skin! It was on her soul, so deep and fatal that she could not live anymore.

She could live, but only by the supervision of the rules that bound her. She had to let go of her free half and caged herself just to please the ones around her.

She knew that life was nothing but brutal, but was it wrong to expect even a little from it? All she ever asked for was acceptance.

The world would not accept her, unless she embraced herself for the who she is. She did not believe in herself and neither did the world.

Her life had been sacrificed, haunted and liberated from the powerful angel of happiness.

 All that she was left with was an open book, filled with just rotten memory.. 

Emotionless Addiction

He held her tight and promised her that he would never let her go.
He loved her more than life,
She meant the world to him.
But it wasn't true. It was an emotionless addiction.
Just like alcohol or cigarette.
Her attention was his soul, her touch was his lust.
He looked at her with greedy eyes,
She laid there so perfect.
Only if his promise was true,
She would have been by his side and not in the
Grave.

Black & White

She laid down on her bed, head rush.
She heard nothing but a voice inside her head,
it kept reminding her that she was not perfect.
She let the darkness engulf her mind,
and slowly pulled down the blind.
She would not let anyone enter door,
as she had been hurt too many times before.
This world is nothing but black & white,
but we always let it out of our sight.
She hid under her covers and let her eyes pour,
she regretted all the things she did before..
She had changed due to circumstances,
there was a new world around her.
She could not recognize herself,
the mirror reflect something but she sees something else.
All she left due is to apologize,
she had let go of people who meant to her more than life.
This world is nothing but black & white,
but we always let it out of our sight.

IF our love was true.

If our love was true,

There would be no need to prove,

How you feel for me.

As I will not be insecure

And everything would go the

Way we wanted it to,

Giving us no reason to

Give it another shot.

Pitiable State

The walls we built, break down.
The spirit we had, lays down.
The grounds on which we stand, trembles down.

Everyone is pointing out their gun,
no one is ready to take the blame.
This life has more to give,
then what we usually take.

Misunderstanding,
is all the takes.
Which pulls us down,
with pity and disgrace.

All we had to do,
was listen with an open mind.
All they had to do,
was embrace us with open arms.

Now all that lays between us;
are broken glasses,
shattered memories,
and torn smiles.

But no matter what happens,
I will still be by your side.

Kick Misery Out Of Your Life.

The note below is not written by me, I read it somewhere! I could relate to it tremendously and thought it would be good if I could share it too.


Everyone wants to be happy. No one wants to be miserable, yet we inadvertently invite misery into our life. If you knew the triggers that invite misery, you would certainly avoid them. So, here are some of them.

(1) The grass is always greener on the other side.
Every time you see another person and wish you had his/her life, you are making yourself miserable. You have no idea about the struggles of another, and are better off with your own trials and tribulations.

(2) When you think about what others may be thinking about you, you become miserable.
All sorts of nonsensical ideas fill your mind, and you end up feeling blah. What others think of you is no your concern.

(3) Whenever you choose to feel envious about the good fortunes of others, you are opening the door of misery in your mind.
Be happy for others! Genuinely rejoice in their superior talent, wisdom and success.


(4) Every time you start thinking about what is lacking in your life, you feel miserable.
Even a sunny day becomes grey, and nothing can cheer you up! Avoid misery by making a mental list of all that you have.

(5) Whenever you try to change someone, you are inviting misery in your life.
It is difficult enough to make changes within oneself; what to speak of transforming others! Work on yourself, and leave others to be as they are.

Your reaction to what happens in your life will leave you feeling either miserable or content. React positively and ward of misery.

I really hope you could relate to this, the way I could. Knowledge like this is seldom passed, endeavor as much as you can now! :)


cheers xx


-Monday, 30th July 2012 [10:10 pm]

Love At First Sight?

What is Love At First Sight?

Hey, I just met you,
And this is crazy,
But here's my number,
So call me, maybe?

- Call Me Maybe by Carly Rae Jepsen.

One line thesis on "Love At First Sight". Credits to one of the most popular songs of this year.

When people say 'they felt connected' or 'they thought there was some force pulling them together' it is not true.

You cannot fall in love with someone the minute you meet them.   Yes you maybe attracted to them, physically. But being attracted to someone is not the same as being 'connected'!

I completely disagree with the entire theory of "chemistry" between the couple. A couple do not have to look together. If they love each other enough, they will naturally look good together! 

You cannot simply fall in love with someone without getting to know them well. Until you do not know the person's personality, how can you fall in love with them? 

You cannot love someone who you do not know well enough! You have to understand each other, know the good and the bad side and accept the person for who they are.

If you do fall in love, at first sight. Ask yourself this: "What made you fall in love?"

I am betting the only thing you can come up with is:PHYSICAL QUALITIES.

Is that a good enough reason? HA. Yes, keep thinking hard and let me know yeah? 

-Thursday, 26th July 2012 [8:00PM]