A Mixed Confusion

Change the subject, change the lines.

But no matter what happens,

I hope things would be alright.

A hope with no candle.

A hope with no light.

All that's left behind, 

Is the tragic of my life.

The fear to lose you;

The pleasure to be free

A mixed confusion 

That has no happy ending.

I just want to escape this tragedy.

A heart that belongs to a lion,

A scar that cannot heal.

Whenever I see your smile,

My heart gives a little squeal.

Now you're gone, far away,

But thinking about you, makes me smile..

All the joyful moment we had,

let it be war or love;

I just had a glory of having you in my life.

But, that passed away in second

And there are just memories;

All left behind!

-Tuesday, 26th June 2012 [8:30pm]

Thank You Note (You Never Received)

Hi you! I know it is a little too late now, you might have even moved on but I just needed to get this out of my head. I know our relationship has never been the perfect love story but you have nevertheless been a great part of my life.
I just needed to pour my heart out to you! I realized a little too late how much you mean to me. I actually haven't acknowledged and thanked you enough for all that you have done for me. I've always been selfish and greedy about myself and I would like to apologize with all due respect.

Well, I haven't mentioned to you how lucky I was to have you. I was graced to have such a caring and wonderful person in my life. I may never find someone who could replace you. There was even a point where, without you, I was like a broken puzzle piece. You completed me.
You made me feel so beautiful every moment when I was with you. You even stood by me when I was going through a lot of things. You held my hand an guided me through the mess and storm that surrounded me. You kissed me gently to assure me that you would always be there for me. You hugged me to comfort me and I always felt like home in your embrace.

The way your eyes shined when you looked at me, made me understand how passionate someone can be. The way we talked night after night without caring about the world around us. The way you wrapped your arms around me and understood me no matter what. The billion dollar smile that brightened my day and reminded me how lucky I was. Even when we fought, I could hear the love and care deep underneath.

You have done so much for me and I have never acknowledged you for it! I always broke your heart and let you down. Anyone would be lucky to have you...maybe the lucky one is not me. You will find someone who loves you with the same intensity someday.

I am so sorry because I have always wronged you, in so many ways that I do not even know how I am going to face you. No matter who you are or what you have become. I would always love you for making me who I am today! You will always have a special place right inside my soul and;

Every time I close my eyes to think about you and I. I fell at home, all so peaceful and serene because I know I will never be alone.

-Saturday, 23rd June 2012 [11:22pm]

More Than Friends.

We were together, even as friends.
We knew each other, more than anyone cared.
I have never felt this lonely, after you walked away.
I'm left behind, with a smell of my fate.
I just thought we could be more than friends.
I just failed to understand that this story won't end my way.
I would've kept my feelings to myself..
If I knew confessing it to you, would bring you away!

-Thursday, 21st June 2012 [10:10am]

In Pain Forever

I want to be free
Not locked in your custody

Praying for freedom
Annoyed at love
In confusion
No more memories

For crying out loud; your
Over reacting
Racing for oxygen
Everyday of my life
Verifying truth and lies
Everybody has
Recognized this fear.

-Tuesday, 12th June 2012 [8:30pm]

Goal Of Life Is Like A Kite.

I was just looking out of my room; then suddenly my eyes rested on this little boy who was flying a kite. The boy was so patient and observant.
His mother called out to him but he was just focussed on successfully flying the kite. Due to the amount of concentration, the kite was still soaring high in the sky!
Beautifully flying through the wind, going with the flow...gradually floating up and suddenly flowing back down. But every time it fell down; he continued to concentrate and still had the confidence in him that his kite will fly higher than the others.

Pondering on this wonderful scene; it crossed my mind that our goals in life is like that kite. It flows and floats in the direction we want it to flow. Sometimes we soar high up and raise our head up with pride and sometimes we fall flat low and are in no competition to others!
But due to our self-esteem, self-confidence and will power, we can actually make our kites flow right back at the top where it belongs.

To maintain that height, we need confidence. Not OVER CONFIDENCE, mind you. Just confidence, patience, concentration and motivation which will no matter what continue to guide us to reach and fulfill our goals!

-Monday, 11th June 2012 [11:56am]

Mr/Ms Perfect?

Romantic movies have successfully corrupted and invaded our minds. The "Happy Ending" stories are so perfect that we dread to have a story like that ourselves. It has made our expectation on love really high!

Through falling for someone is easy. But what we have to realize is that no one is perfect out there. This world is cruel and ugly! Unless you find some fairy godparents who could create a perfect life, world and person for you. Then good for you Sherlock :)
But our lives are no movies, they are no fairytale. If you cannot compromise in life you will not be able to be happy.

Why are the rates of divorce increasing in the world? Why are teenagers throwing the phrase 'I Love You' out so much? Why don't relationships last more than six months? Could this be because of these perfect love stories we watch or hear about?

Stories are just emotions that authors or writers with creative minds and ideas scribble! Why do we follow their ideas when we can create our own? We can make anything beautiful.

I was told once that things are always created twice: first in the workshop of the mind then only in reality. Basically, anything that happens in reality is actually just a blueprint of what you wanted in your mind.
Therefore instead of relying on what movies and fairytales portray on love stories we should just create our own love story and make it beautiful!

-Sunday, 10th June 2012 [3:14pm]

Two People, One Sacrifice.

Walk out of that door every morning with a smile to make people happy or maybe just move on with things, even though it really hurts. Suppressing and hiding your feelings to see that particular person happy who means so much than life.
So you sacrifice all your pain and you do what keeps them happy. Basically you lie about your feelings for their sake. There is more to a relationship between two people.

The understanding and caring or sometimes even the sacrifice. But you cannot keep sacrificing from your half of the relationship. It would explode your nerves and even your heart someday.
Yes, there is a line.  You cannot always keep hiding those feelings to keep them happy now. Can you?

You think it is very healthy for your relationship. But you cannot control it after a certain point. When you think they are dominating how you live. When you start figuring out maybe you have done a little too much. When you start realizing this is not perfect.

But what we don't tend to remember is that, at that point we get very selfish. You do not recognize the sacrifice the other person made. We look beyond their love and understanding. We think we are doing too much but do not step into their shoes!!

All that I am saying is, relationships are made by two people. They involve two lives, two hearts, two emotions, two feeling and even two visions. We need to accept the other person with their flaws and beauty! If we fail to do so, what is the point of that relationship?

-Friday, 8th June 2012 [6:15pm]

Women Power.

A women can play many roles..
She can be a mother and give birth to a child through a very hard and painful process. She would sacrifice her life to protect her child. She would shower just selfless love.
She can be a lover and change a man's life. She could show a man the right path and hold his hand through thick and thin.
She can be a daughter and maker her family proud by working hard and achieving good grades. She would even let of her dreams to fulfill that of her parents.
She can be a housewife and run the whole house. She would make everybody happy. Wake up in the morning and cheer everybody up. She guides everyone through the right path.

But when a women hits success, she is always accused. Why is that so?
If a women can go through labour, she can sacrifice her goals and dreams and she can run the entire house with a smile. Can't she be talented and successful?
Why do we have to judge her and give her names and disgrace her? Is that what the society has taught us?

There are still places in the world; where little girls are burned alive because they are a burden to the family.
Have you forgotten that your mother was once a little girl too? There would be no life in this planet without a girl.

There are still places in the world; where little girls are raped.
Have you forgotten respect? What about her future? What about her dignity? What about her innocence? Look into that eyes, that call out for help!!

There are still places in the world; where teen girls are being kidnapped and dragged into prostitution!

Why do only girls have to suffer so much? Even after all the hardship they go through?
Just give it a little thought!!

-Thursday, 7th June 2012 [11:44pm]